Today as I was stopped at a red light I could not help but notice a young pregnant girl crossing the street. She was holding on to her little girl who was red and flushed from the heat. I quickly realized there was a young, tough and mean looking guy walking behind them who apparently was her boyfriend or husband. I could tell she was angry at him as he ignored her and just kept drinking an energy drink and listening to his music. Then suddenly the light turned green and I headed home, but for some odd reason I saw myself in the young girl and I wanted to help her and give her a ride. It was one of the hottest days outside at 108 degrees and I could see she and her little girl were tired and hot .
Regretfully once again my fierce enemy “flesh” started a coup and was overtaking my thoughts of compassion. My flesh went below the belt and pulled the word “safety” and used it as its weapon against me. Yes, maybe I would not be safe. The young man could of rob me or pull a gun out who knows. Then thankfully my heart took the lead and fought the cause and reminded me to listen to the prompting of the Spirit. God would take care of me, it was him who was telling me to step out in faith and offer these young kids a ride. So I did what many might think illogical, I turned the car around and decided to follow my heart.
Shamefully I share I missed out. I missed out on one of God’s blessings today. I could not find these young kids they were nowhere to be found I searched and searched. I could not share God’s love with them because I was holding on to it to tight. I was so concerned with my “safety ” I did not meet the needs of those in front of me. I pray every day that I would show someone an act of kindness.
I feel like lately kindness has been really difficult for me to conquer. Many might think that’s not true because of what they see on the outside. If people read my mind they would be very disappointed with me. Many times I have let busyness, exhaustion and fear dictate my actions, then what happens I miss out. Whenever I start to rationalize my thinking I suffocate the Spirit in me and once again the enemy applauds his victory.
But today I am reminded that kindness is a fruit of the Spirit. It has permanent residence inside of me. Of course I will receive the Spirits nudging to use the gifts he has given me. And of course my flesh will battle every step I take towards kindness this is the holy war I will fight till I get to heaven. But when I think I am mastering this struggle another strong hold tries to pull me down.
My unkind thoughts also put a wedge between me and kindness. If I don’t deal with my thoughts they show up on my tongue. Then given the opportunity they slip out in words that definitely don’t build up. (especially with my teens) When I get upset with my kids there are times my words and actions don’t display any kindness at all.
So please understand that we must also be kind in our thoughts and in our hearts not just in our actions. If we don’t stop the sin in our minds (the flesh) it will grow into an ugly beast. It will sneak out eventually and all will see the ugly monster we have housed and hidden in our hearts and minds.
So many times I feel like I am being tempted by Satan but the truth is my flesh is doing a good job keeping him away. My flesh wants to be my master and drag me away from the truth. But the good news is my flesh really has no power over me it has been crucified read Galatians 5:24-25
24 And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
25 If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit.