Wonderfully Made

Wonderfully Made” As I sit and watch my kids basketball practice I am reminded once again the “beauty of innocence.” So many different children some tall, some short, some fair some dark. You see those who are jocks, some who are quirky, and those who are clueless. Then I see my boy his feet and arms all going in different directions as he is running. He has the biggest smile on his face he has no idea he is different from the rest of the kids. There was a time my heart would ache as I watched my ”disabled children” trying to fit in. But now I praise God for my “special blessings.” Many might say a ”disabled child“ is God’s mistake. But being a mother of “many disabled kids” I can share they are...

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Big Whooping

As I fumble through life many times I get so discouraged. I feel like I just can’t meet the expectations put on me.  I want so badly to be a soft spoken hero to my children. Instead when I talk it sounds like I use a megaphone, and why would they want to follow this kooky old woman! There are so many days I feel like a “Loony Tune.” I ask myself so many times “What kind of example am I being to my children?” Why doesn’t my brain ever go on “STOP” mode, why is it always going 100 miles per hour? Why do I feel guilty when I sit and do nothing? Do I really believe “Every need is my calling?”  Then I get on my knees and pray for God to multiply the hours in my day so I can get it all done. Then it happens “BAM” the big “WHOOPING”. God says “Hold your...

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Silly Goose

A few weeks ago my husband and I were asleep when suddenly our youngest daughter Sari startled us. Just as I was going to ask “Whats wrong honey”?  my husband  grabbed her hand and asked, “Are you okay?”  Sari  looked at him so seriously and replied “Im looking at you daddy“, It was so matter of fact. My husbands response caused my heart to skip a beat as I thanked God for this man. His reply was, “What is a beautiful princess like you looking at an old toad like me.” Her angelic response was, “Silly goose  because your my Daddy and I love you”  It was such a tender moment between them. I could see the tears in his eyes. This little girl didn’t see a man who looked like a grandpa with his  silver...

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Billy Bob

So many times as the mother of Special needs kids I have been baffled and confused. Recently as I was schooling my son I asked him a simple question. As he looked at me his beautiful blue eyes lit up and he quickly stood up with a smile that seemed to make him glow. This was for sure a “Kodak” moment. He answered my question and he was right on the button. I told his brothers and sisters to give him a hand and he proudly took a bow. He was pretty stinking cute!! I was reminded of Jesus and how he taught his disciples. Jesus knew scripture inside and out. Yet instead of choosing the Pharisee’s who were knowledgeable in the law whom did he choose? He chose uneducated “fishermen!” Instead of having theological conversations and debates he...

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Broken and Beautiful

This weekend I was at a conference and I saw many disturbing pictures of orphans around the world. There were orphans who were starving, sex trafficked, used for child labor and many just badly abused. As I took in all those hurting faces I could not wonder why some children are born into families with loving arms and others are born into arms who try but can’t take the burden of another child. Or how about the arms that hold tight to their loved ones but don’t have the strength to hold them as their babies are ripped from their arms and sold for food so they can survive My heart ached as I thought these could have been my children. It was then I saw a picture of a little boy in a scant white night gown curled in a ball lying on cold cement. The most heart...

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He did it, no she did it!

Having a house full of kids is truly a blessing there are many rewards but also a ton of calamities. Having mostly teens and soon to be teens in our home puts us in the middle of some very precarious situations. We are always trying to guess and understand the thinking mechanism in their head. We know there has to be a brain in there but how theirs works is truly a mystery to us.  Our kids do the most unbelievable things truthfully “I just don’t get it.” I feel at this point in my life I should be receiving a “Doctrine Degree in Criminal law” if there is such a thing. I know some might read this and laugh but for me this is a serious issue. I am exhausted at times trying to figure out who the guilty culprit is.  There are times when the verdict is “GUILTY” and I...

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