Big Whooping

As I fumble through life many times I get so discouraged. I feel like I just can’t meet the expectations put on me.  I want so badly to be a soft spoken hero to my children. Instead when I talk it sounds like I use a megaphone, and why would they want to follow this kooky old woman! There are so many days I feel like a “Loony Tune.” I ask myself so many times “What kind of example am I being to my children?” Why doesn’t my brain ever go on “STOP” mode, why is it always going 100 miles per hour? Why do I feel guilty when I sit and do nothing? Do I really believe “Every need is my calling?”  Then I get on my knees and pray for God to multiply the hours in my day so I can get it all done. Then it happens “BAM” the big “WHOOPING”. God says “Hold your...

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Where?

Yesterday as I was going through my day an old praise song kept coming to my mind. “I’ve got joy, joy, joy, joy, down in my heart, “WHERE” down in my heart, “WHERE” down in my heart.” This song was song by the famous Christian singer named “PSALTY”. He was famous many years ago before Veggie Tales knocked him off the charts. He wasn’t a silly vegetable he was a talking book! So every time he sang the word “WHERE” it was loud and almost screechy! Well yesterday that was what I heard all day long  a loud and screechy “WHERE” I found my self asking “WHERE” is my joy, “WHERE” did it go? Why don’t I laugh as much as I once did? Why does life seem so serious and sad to me now? Is this what happens when you get older, the reality of life...

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One day to the next

Do you ever wish you could do a” instant replay” on your day knowing ahead of time what calamities were waiting for you? Well yesterday was a day I wish I could erase from time. I lost the battle my flesh took over. I’m sure the enemy was going around saying “ I knocked her down, I knocked her down!!! I think for me the hardest thing was “I thought I had my armor on. “ That morning I didn’t have to be at work till 10:00 (or so I thought).  I got up early read the word and went into my favorite place, my closet and spend time on my knees with my heavenly Father. I was ready to deal with any fiery arrow that would be coming my way. Proudly my flesh was saying “Okay bring it on I’m ready to fight the battle today” Well what a joke, at the end of my day I...

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Hungry Flesh

As I was driving to work the other day a nasty snapshot came to my mind. It was so vivid and clear that I instinctively shook my head as if it would disappear and go away. The picture came from a movie I had seen so many, many years ago. “How can this be!” I thought. Here I was praying and praising the Lord and this ugly image came to mind and destroyed my sweet worship. I was disgusted and ashamed at my self for watching something inappropriate that would later come back to haunt me. I prayed and asked God to take this thought away but for some reason I still felt dirty. About a week later I was reading the news and there was a story about a young singer who made a video and it was very controversial. The news media was sharing how inappropriate it was for young...

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Nasty Screen

Today as I was sitting in a hospital waiting room I was literally shocked! There was a television on the whole time we were in the waiting room. I would not consider myself naive to the things that go on in this world but today I realized “I Know Nothing.” Selfies is becoming a thing of the past, now women are taking pictures of their bottoms and sending them. (gross) Sex, lust, nudity, immorality, and homosexuallity seems to be the main topic on the morning shows. Now please understand this, we did not turn on the television it was on already at 6:00 in the morning. We were not watching but we could here every word, and so could the young kids in the room. Regrettably the parents never even flinched at what was being done and said on the nasty...

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Traitor

As I was reading John 6 this morning I was taken back by the thought “Where were all those people who Jesus fed when he was crucified.” At this point in time the Pharisee’s and Sadducee’s had to be afraid that Jesus followers would cause riots and no longer follow the Jewish traditions. How did it make them feel that they could loose their sovereign ranks amongst the people. There had to be a least twenty thousand people there being miraculously healed then miraculously fed.” So what happened?” When they realized the cost of Christ why did they walk away and defect back to their old ways? Think what could’ve happened if they all covered his back. The so-called religious leaders would really be shaking in their boots (probably sandals) or spending lots of time in...

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